dreams, and the past

SO..
i've come to a realization about myself that i can no longer brush aside..
I am working really hard at living this positive life, and now that i've discovered the secret, certain things are so much easier.. i really love my life, myself, my job, my friends, my family, Everything.. i honestly couldn't be more blessed and more lucky to live the life that i do.
However, i'm struggling with one thing: putting my past in the past, and moving on.
I don't want to say that i have regrets because i don't ..i'm glad that things have progressed this way thus far, BUT, i still don't give myself enough credit for my accomplishments. I struggle with realizing that i'm human, that my mistakes are okay, and to just forget about them. I have so many dreams and aspirations and i feel like i'm shorting myself out of life. I feel like this world has so much more to offer, and i'm not experiencing it the right way because of my fear to let the past go, and accept defeat, and to surrender that battle.
I try, really hard.. i want to let it go, but it's more difficult than just saying "Go away" lol
I need to realize that i can do anything i want, i can accomplish anything, and i can have whatever i want.. i already have it.. it's within my reach..
Our nation just elected it's first african american president. After the history of this nation, civil rights movements, the civil war, slavery, and all the division we as a nation have gone through, Our Citizens pulled together, united, and voted in it's first Black President.
This is such an historical event in our history, and i'm so proud to be able to witness it, and to be able to pass on the stories to my children, and grandchildren some day. This event, if any should be an eye opener to me, that really, anything is possible. I can overcome my fear, I will overcome my past, and I will prevail..
Let's hope this new President of ours will be able to overcome the idotic notations of politicians, and will be able to lead our country and it's citizens into a more prosperous nation. I'm hoping that he will not make some of the stupid decisions that have been discussed following his election, and i'm hoping that our Country will realize what the greatest need in our nation is. I'm hoping that people will be able to still have the freedom to critisize their President and his decisions, and not be called a racist. I'm hoping that the people of my nation will be able to still own the right to their opinion, and that people will not fold under pressure in fear of persecution. I'm praying that this nation will find a way to unite as one, and to regain the strength we have lost over the past few years.
Most of all, i'm hoping that I will be able to regain the strength that I have lost over the past few years.