Sunny days seem to hurt the most
Wear the pain like a heavy coat
I feel you everywhere I go
I see your smile, I see your face
I hear you laughing in the rain
Still can't believe you're gone
Chorus:
It ain't fair you died too young
Like a story that had just begun
The death tore the pages all away
God knows how I miss you
All the hell that I've been through
Just knowing no one could take your *love away*(instead of 'place')
Sometimes I wonder who you'd be today
Would you see the world?
Would you chase your dreams?
Settle down with a family?
I wonder, what would you name your babies?
Some days the sky's so blue
I feel like I can talk to you
And I know it might sound crazy
Chorus
Today, Today, Today
Today, Today, Today
Sunny days seem to hurt the most
I wear the pain like a heavy coat
The only thing that gives me hope
Is I know I'll see you again someday
Someday, Someday
It's really weird to think that you would be 17 years old today. You would be a Junior in High School.. Would you be playing basketball? I can imagine so, i mean you are a Niehaus. :)
I think about the day you were supposed to come home, the day we were so excited to have you, and that same day, that you didn't come home, but the next days holding you at your funeral. I know i was only 5 but i see the pain it put mom through, and wish that you could be here today. Maybe if only to fill a void in the house, or maybe we would be close. I don't know, but someday we'll see you again some day. :)
Please pray for my mom and dad this weekend.. it's always hard.
Thursday, January 29, 2009
Tuesday, January 20, 2009
dreams, and the past
SO..
i've come to a realization about myself that i can no longer brush aside..
I am working really hard at living this positive life, and now that i've discovered the secret, certain things are so much easier.. i really love my life, myself, my job, my friends, my family, Everything.. i honestly couldn't be more blessed and more lucky to live the life that i do.
However, i'm struggling with one thing: putting my past in the past, and moving on.
I don't want to say that i have regrets because i don't ..i'm glad that things have progressed this way thus far, BUT, i still don't give myself enough credit for my accomplishments. I struggle with realizing that i'm human, that my mistakes are okay, and to just forget about them. I have so many dreams and aspirations and i feel like i'm shorting myself out of life. I feel like this world has so much more to offer, and i'm not experiencing it the right way because of my fear to let the past go, and accept defeat, and to surrender that battle.
I try, really hard.. i want to let it go, but it's more difficult than just saying "Go away" lol
I need to realize that i can do anything i want, i can accomplish anything, and i can have whatever i want.. i already have it.. it's within my reach..
Our nation just elected it's first african american president. After the history of this nation, civil rights movements, the civil war, slavery, and all the division we as a nation have gone through, Our Citizens pulled together, united, and voted in it's first Black President.
This is such an historical event in our history, and i'm so proud to be able to witness it, and to be able to pass on the stories to my children, and grandchildren some day. This event, if any should be an eye opener to me, that really, anything is possible. I can overcome my fear, I will overcome my past, and I will prevail..
Let's hope this new President of ours will be able to overcome the idotic notations of politicians, and will be able to lead our country and it's citizens into a more prosperous nation. I'm hoping that he will not make some of the stupid decisions that have been discussed following his election, and i'm hoping that our Country will realize what the greatest need in our nation is. I'm hoping that people will be able to still have the freedom to critisize their President and his decisions, and not be called a racist. I'm hoping that the people of my nation will be able to still own the right to their opinion, and that people will not fold under pressure in fear of persecution. I'm praying that this nation will find a way to unite as one, and to regain the strength we have lost over the past few years.
Most of all, i'm hoping that I will be able to regain the strength that I have lost over the past few years.
i've come to a realization about myself that i can no longer brush aside..
I am working really hard at living this positive life, and now that i've discovered the secret, certain things are so much easier.. i really love my life, myself, my job, my friends, my family, Everything.. i honestly couldn't be more blessed and more lucky to live the life that i do.
However, i'm struggling with one thing: putting my past in the past, and moving on.
I don't want to say that i have regrets because i don't ..i'm glad that things have progressed this way thus far, BUT, i still don't give myself enough credit for my accomplishments. I struggle with realizing that i'm human, that my mistakes are okay, and to just forget about them. I have so many dreams and aspirations and i feel like i'm shorting myself out of life. I feel like this world has so much more to offer, and i'm not experiencing it the right way because of my fear to let the past go, and accept defeat, and to surrender that battle.
I try, really hard.. i want to let it go, but it's more difficult than just saying "Go away" lol
I need to realize that i can do anything i want, i can accomplish anything, and i can have whatever i want.. i already have it.. it's within my reach..
Our nation just elected it's first african american president. After the history of this nation, civil rights movements, the civil war, slavery, and all the division we as a nation have gone through, Our Citizens pulled together, united, and voted in it's first Black President.
This is such an historical event in our history, and i'm so proud to be able to witness it, and to be able to pass on the stories to my children, and grandchildren some day. This event, if any should be an eye opener to me, that really, anything is possible. I can overcome my fear, I will overcome my past, and I will prevail..
Let's hope this new President of ours will be able to overcome the idotic notations of politicians, and will be able to lead our country and it's citizens into a more prosperous nation. I'm hoping that he will not make some of the stupid decisions that have been discussed following his election, and i'm hoping that our Country will realize what the greatest need in our nation is. I'm hoping that people will be able to still have the freedom to critisize their President and his decisions, and not be called a racist. I'm hoping that the people of my nation will be able to still own the right to their opinion, and that people will not fold under pressure in fear of persecution. I'm praying that this nation will find a way to unite as one, and to regain the strength we have lost over the past few years.
Most of all, i'm hoping that I will be able to regain the strength that I have lost over the past few years.
Monday, January 12, 2009
Don't sweat the small stuff
I've spent most of my life sweating stuff... not only do i sweat the small stuff, but i sweat the big stuff, and the medium sized stuff.
I've spent way too much of my life just stressed.
Sure, i've read the "dont sweat the small stuff for.." books and i've always been the encouraging friend who tells you not to worry about it.. but i've been hypocritical.. how could i tell you not to worry about it, when clearly, i was the one who didn't feel "normal" unless i was stressed to the max.
Lately, just out of wanting to feel better, i've realized that it's okay to breathe, and to relax.
I may still stress occasionally but honestly, for almost 3 weeks now, i can not say that i have been stressed.
This weekend, i lapsed, and had an awful awful day on Saturday, but i'm human. i've picked myself up, and it's officially over at this point.
Anywho.. it's really important to prioritize yourself and the things,people, beliefs, thoughts in your life.. this article speaks out loud! :))
Don't forget to laugh today! love love.
http://www.sparkpeople.com/resource/motivation_articles.asp?id=264
I've spent way too much of my life just stressed.
Sure, i've read the "dont sweat the small stuff for.." books and i've always been the encouraging friend who tells you not to worry about it.. but i've been hypocritical.. how could i tell you not to worry about it, when clearly, i was the one who didn't feel "normal" unless i was stressed to the max.
Lately, just out of wanting to feel better, i've realized that it's okay to breathe, and to relax.
I may still stress occasionally but honestly, for almost 3 weeks now, i can not say that i have been stressed.
This weekend, i lapsed, and had an awful awful day on Saturday, but i'm human. i've picked myself up, and it's officially over at this point.
Anywho.. it's really important to prioritize yourself and the things,people, beliefs, thoughts in your life.. this article speaks out loud! :))
Don't forget to laugh today! love love.
http://www.sparkpeople.com/resource/motivation_articles.asp?id=264
Thursday, January 8, 2009
Encouragement
I encourage you all to read this, think about this, and possibly start posting it somewhere in your life where you can read it out loud every day to yourself.
It's very cool... very cool...
Today will be a great day!
I will stay full of faith
Stay full of joy
Stay full of hope
Eat Healthy, Exercise & be kind to everyone I encounter!
If you start your day off on a positive note, it's much more likely to continue being such a great day! :)
Remember, the power of the mind is endless... you can do anything and have anything you want in this universe.. you just have to think and be happy! :)
"What you think about, you bring about"
Love Love
It's very cool... very cool...
Today will be a great day!
I will stay full of faith
Stay full of joy
Stay full of hope
Eat Healthy, Exercise & be kind to everyone I encounter!
If you start your day off on a positive note, it's much more likely to continue being such a great day! :)
Remember, the power of the mind is endless... you can do anything and have anything you want in this universe.. you just have to think and be happy! :)
"What you think about, you bring about"
Love Love
Tuesday, January 6, 2009
The things that get me through the hard times
"The longer I live, the more I realize the impact of attitude on life.
Attitude to me, is more important than facts.
It is more important than the past, than education, than money, than circumstances, than failures, than successes, than what other people think or say or do.
It is more important than apprearance, giftedness, or skill.
It will make or break a company....a church...a home.
The remarkable thing is that we have a choice every day regarding the attitude we will embrace for that day.
We cannot change the inevitable.
The only thing we can do is play on the one string we have, and that is our attitude.
I am convinced that life is 10% what happens to me and 90% how I react to it.
And so it is with you...we are in charge of our attitudes."
"all that we are is the result of what we have thought" - Buddha
"all power if from within, and therefore under our control" - Robert Collier
"what you think about, you bring about"
"Wealth is the product of man's ability to think." -Ayn Rand
"The key is to have a dream that inspires us to go beyond our limits." -Robert Kriegel
"The future belongs to those who believe in the beauty of their dreams." -Eleanor Roosevelt
All that we are is the result of what we have thought. If a man speaks or acts with an evil thought, pain follows him. If a man speaks or acts with a pure thought, happiness follows him, like a shadow that never leaves him.
Buddha
Friendship is the only cure for hatred, the only guarantee of peace.
Buddha
It is better to conquer yourself than to win a thousand battles. Then the victory is yours. It cannot be taken from you, not by angels or by demons, heaven or hell.
Buddha
We are shaped by our thoughts; we become what we think. When the mind is pure, joy follows like a shadow that never leaves.
Buddha
We are what we think. All that we are arises with our thoughts. With our thoughts, we make the world.
Buddha
I challenge all of my blog readers to go out and buy "The Secret" .. read it... don't just look at the words, actually read it.. take it in, and live it.. it's the secret to life..
it can change you.. remember, nothing is permanent.. what you think about you bring about.
happy happy
Attitude to me, is more important than facts.
It is more important than the past, than education, than money, than circumstances, than failures, than successes, than what other people think or say or do.
It is more important than apprearance, giftedness, or skill.
It will make or break a company....a church...a home.
The remarkable thing is that we have a choice every day regarding the attitude we will embrace for that day.
We cannot change the inevitable.
The only thing we can do is play on the one string we have, and that is our attitude.
I am convinced that life is 10% what happens to me and 90% how I react to it.
And so it is with you...we are in charge of our attitudes."
"all that we are is the result of what we have thought" - Buddha
"all power if from within, and therefore under our control" - Robert Collier
"what you think about, you bring about"
"Wealth is the product of man's ability to think." -Ayn Rand
"The key is to have a dream that inspires us to go beyond our limits." -Robert Kriegel
"The future belongs to those who believe in the beauty of their dreams." -Eleanor Roosevelt
All that we are is the result of what we have thought. If a man speaks or acts with an evil thought, pain follows him. If a man speaks or acts with a pure thought, happiness follows him, like a shadow that never leaves him.
Buddha
Friendship is the only cure for hatred, the only guarantee of peace.
Buddha
It is better to conquer yourself than to win a thousand battles. Then the victory is yours. It cannot be taken from you, not by angels or by demons, heaven or hell.
Buddha
We are shaped by our thoughts; we become what we think. When the mind is pure, joy follows like a shadow that never leaves.
Buddha
We are what we think. All that we are arises with our thoughts. With our thoughts, we make the world.
Buddha
I challenge all of my blog readers to go out and buy "The Secret" .. read it... don't just look at the words, actually read it.. take it in, and live it.. it's the secret to life..
it can change you.. remember, nothing is permanent.. what you think about you bring about.
happy happy
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