My Life

The past few days, i've done way too much thinking about my life. It has fried my brain.


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haha just kidding, but seriously.. i don't know where it's taking me. I really need some advice on what to do with my life. I know that sounds kind of ridiculous since it's my life and i should make the decisions, and do what makes me happy. BUT, here's the thing... i don't know what makes me happy...
here's what i'm thinking..


1. I have never done anything with my life, other than work with kids. Seriously, i had stupid bagger jobs and i worked at subway, and Evelyn Bay, but in reality, all i've ever done is taught, watched, nannied, babysat, and raised kids. I have no experience doing anything else.

2. I am a natural born leader. I am a go getter. I am a control freak.

3. I like being involved, i always do too much, and put too much on my plate, and i enjoy planning, organizing, and implementing.

4. I love kids


Okay, so with those 4 points made, i've come to these conclusions about my career:

1. I want to work with kids, some how some way
2. Child Development and Psychology interests and intrigues me
3. I want to make a difference
4. I don't think Money is a factor
5. I don't think i want to be a teacher

okay, so i've spend $25,000 and three years in college working on an Elementary Education Degree, and i just decided that i don't want to be a teacher. WOW. Alright, so no big deal, i've still got plenty of time, right!?
Well, here's where i'm at.

1. I don't know if i want to be a pyschologist or therapist, but it is something that has crossed my mind.
2. I want to be influential in the lives of children
3. I enjoy writing
4. I want to be successfull

Oh man, this just keeps going on and on.
I've researched all these different colleges, programs, degrees, and i stll can't seem to find the one thing that inspires me, other than the fact that it deals with kids. lol

SOOO, here's my problem: I know what i want, i just don't know where this could take me in a career. Here's what i want:

1. I want to inspire, and encourage people, i want to help people, i want people to understand their worth, their value, and their strength.
2. I want to change the world
3. I want to work with Children
4. I value, understand, and am extremelly interested in Child Development
5. I don't want to be a teacher
6. I want to write a book
7. I want that book to be published
8. I want to be successfull, AND happy. :)


okay, so now i need help. I know what i want, but i don't know how to put it all together and get what i want. I don't know where this takes me, if there is a job that fits this description, or comes close. I don't know if there is a degree, or 2 or 4 that meet these wishes, but i need to find it. I've finally come to realize what i want, i just need the inspiration to find the right way to get it.
I can not go another semester without being in school. I feel like i have so much left to learn, and i want to get my career started. I want to get going somewhere in this world. If this takes me out of Grass Lake, so be it, but i just want to feel accomplished, and i want to get my life started. My life outside of the bubble i live in now. There is so much left out there for me to see, and do, and there's so many people i want to meet, and pictures i want to take. I want to get started on this next journey in my life. If it leaves me here in Grass Lake, then so be it, but i just want to do something with this life that i've been blessed to have.

Here's what i'm asking of you, the readers...
please read this and respond, via a comment. You don't have to be a blogspot member to comment, it can be annonymous.. however, please comment. I need input. I need to find the inspiration, and i need to see what my options are.
Tell me what you think, if i'm stupid, or rational, if it's admirable, or ridiculous. Tell me if you think you know the career i'm looking for, tell me if you know the college than can get me there.. tell me if you know the job i'm looking for, or whatever... just leave me some input so i can find the inspiration to inspire other people...